This Blog Should Not Exist, Part 3.14: Two Denninger Articles, Both With A Disturbing Conclusion

I had a sad argument with my nephew several months back.

He is a Christian with Libertarian bent.

I can't see how there is compatibility between the two.

My nephew blasted me for some of my stands with respect to who and how I was prevented from being the monster many believe I was put on this Earth to be.  (And that there is less and less non-spiritual reason to believe they aren't right!!!)

If you want a real indication of that incompatibility (and do not wish to hear me ramble on that any personal agency on my part kills people and what now is necessary to prevent it), I submit to you this Karl Denninger Market Ticker screed from today and this one from eight days ago.

If you wish to proceed further, read both of them first and then proceed to my responses to at least portions of some of the comments supporting Denninger's post of today's.

I'll start with what I see as the take-home point:

Htp provides the money question after a discussion of today's post:

"So I am compelled to shoot the bastard or else risk eternal Hell? I am willing to do this but had always thought I risk Hell if I went too far too fast. In any event, I'm clearly not a theological scholar. It was a good story that made me think. Perhaps I just carry the nine and leave the camping toys at home."

The answer is an unmistakable yes, in Denninger's line of thinking.

And the backing point is what is making demographics like transgenders sick in this country:  That Denninger's line of thinking is that the Gospel is a fraud, especially as it relates to allowing "other" (or the criminally violent) to exist.

The entire point of his "parable" is that you not only have a duty to kill in the search for righteousness and justice, but -- in the right situation -- a moral, ethical, and spiritual obligation to do so.

More and more, I do wonder if Karl Denninger is a government plant, because it is unmistakably clear what he calls for:  A Libertarian (or, at minimum, personal accountability/agency) militia to take over the country by lethal force and run it.

The only thing he is right on is the concept that personal responsibility can only exist when there is no choice but to be personally responsible.  That anyone sufficiently otherwise (such as what is believed of myself, and much of the crime in the cities besides) is killed/eliminated, and by the penalty in this parable for those who refuse to carry it out.

A number of the comments so far of the article lament the cowardice of even the American Right:

Invisible Sun:  "I've long thought the modern interpretation of "Love your neighbor as yourself" was inadequate because too many people are self-loathing and treat themselves horribly. Why would I think someone who hates themself will care for my well-being or that of anyone else?"

Nadavegan:  "Pacifism is a noble conviction, right up until it infringes on the safety and well-being of others, at which point is becomes dereliction."

Greenacr:  "I wonder given the host's recent writings if this is his point. The difference being that you don't have to have necessarily be to "compelled to commit blood" to make changes in an oppressive government."

(Who is completely incorrect, both in the eyes of the Fathers (at least in the Conservative line of thinking -- which you can bat back with the concept they were wrong in the first place about all being created equal) and in what I believe Denninger is saying.)

Nelstomlinson demands a call to arms:  "Christ is no pussy, and if you're going to follow Him, you better not be, either."

Crb2061, in his first post:  "This parable seems to be making the man responsible and accountable for the actions of another man. This is a dangerous line of reasoning because where do you draw the line. If someone is on the verge of suicide or other reprehensible act, and you pass them by, not seeing their distress, not even acknowledging their presence, are you then responsible for their later suicide or other reprehensible act?" 

(Suicide?  May depend on the circumstances.  Denninger, as stated before, is fully in support of those who believe they cannot make recompense but before God from eliminating themselves.  But what he is also saying here is that, in fact, "other reprehensible acts" you DO become responsible for, because of your unrepentant allowance to let it happen by not killing him first, given the opportunity.)

(And, in fact, Denninger threatened to banhammer Crb2061, because Karl not only believes that, but, factually, does believe you are responsible for the conduct of every person you do not stop from committing that level of misconduct:

"But if someone is on the verge of rape, you detect that, and fail to prevent it when you have the capacity to do so are you responsible? YES.

The difference is profound and your attempted obfuscation intentional.

Do not do so again.")

The fact is that Karl Denninger wants a Conservative militia raised for righteousness, justice, and the elimination of the irresponsible, including the destruction and re-constitution of governments into ones of such righteousness and justice.

This is why many groups are demanding counter-justice to ensure this doesn't take hold.  We are seeing a stark increase in "Whataboutism" with respect to "freedom":  "What about MY 'freedom' NOT to have [X] exist?", whatever that X may be.

It's one of the reasons I consider the concept of freedom to be Satanic, as it has been perverted, twisted unto itself, and used against the people fighting for their human rights -- which would not be given if the Constitution didn't impose them against the majority, and had done so since 1868 and the spoils of the (First) Civil War.

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So basically, by Denninger's line of thinking:  Every online Deborah Gibson fan of the years at least 1992-1998 inclusive is going to Hell, as each and every one of them had the capacity (and, for more than a period of time, had my personal address to carry it out if they so desired (given for other purposes, but they had it!)) to prevent what was believed as, minimum, that requisite act he speaks of (and it was well-detected within the fandom, at least in their own opinion, 2+ years before my 1998 arrest...).

So, Karl, I will close this post with a mocking title of one of your previous, not that you will probably ever see this, because you have me blocked on all media:  I demand that you shoot me, right now.

You're going to Hell otherwise.  By your own words.

This Blog Should Not Exist, Part 3.001: A response to precisely "nobody"...

 And now, I get to address "nobody".

For those not following along:  Whoever this person is, made a claim I lied in everything I said in Repeat Attenders about *checks watch* two weeks ago(?).

And I said I would answer him in a Part 3.001.

So here it is.  Two important disclaimers:

What he says is the common "reasonable person" response.  So he probably would be declared correct under the relevant flavor of the law.

Secondly, as such, I have a very reasonable charge for this idiot.  Anyone who knows of Deborah's immediate career would understand that by this reasonable person test, if this guy believes half the shit he posts, he needs me out of the picture by no less than tomorrow.  And that is without joke or hesitation.

And remember, what I really believe and what I really will do has no bearing, vis-a-vis the law.  So does this idiot have the nutsack to get it done?  I have no intention of doing anything in that regard -- I believe the arrest was God telling me I was needed elsewhere, by force (and that force continues to this day that I not be violent against those who almost-certainly DO deserve it!).  But the law has no merit in that regard.

So let's see what he responds with.

"You saw her as the perfect star above all else,"

It is about here that I almost start laughing.  If there were two reputations I had among the fanscape, the OTHER ONE was that I was known, as one Deb-friend said it, not to have a cow -- but to have the whole damn dairy farm!!!

Now, to tie this over to more endemic matters to this blog, to say this would actually require the same degree of ignorance as a normal sports fan is required to have to enjoy anything in sports.  Because...  Let's be kind about it and say Deborah is not that bright with respect to the intelligence of the general American moron.

I can count numerous times where she actually would do something that was, on surface, completely reasonable and above-table, except for the fact that it would completely invalidate her work in every feasible respect.  Happened on her third album and her fourth -- and she hasn't been on a major label since.

And it is also not something other fans, even those she trusts, haven't said as well.  Some of the invective regarding her 2005 Playboy shoot (and it's aftermath) would be quite eye-opening.

Do not confuse the person with the conceptualization.

"yet the moment she changed formats from what you believed made her perfect, and after you looked at other stars' career paths similar to what you believe she was going down, you became obsessive over saving her from herself,"

This is probably about the most correct statement he makes, except for two problems:

It wasn't "format".

And second, even before the change in "format", there were weeks, when she was touring theatre productions, where actually getting her to the stage door (something she would do, on default -- because she very highly enjoyed it, and still does (at least to the extent she understands it is now a for-pay situation!) was, at best, about a 50-50 proposition.  And, many times, it was, in fact, because of what I called the "horror stories" like the guy who, as I said, really felt he was going to going to marry Deborah, scoop her (and the rest of us!!!) up, and we would all live in a happy little enclave in the Rocky Mountains.

I am deathly serious.  That was a guy who showed up at the stage door in San Diego the Sunday night I was down there to see Deborah in the production of "Grease" in January of 1996.  He might want to be thankful I was neither there nor identified him, but I did find out about him afterward.

I wish I had one of the tools I've gained in dealing with the few people I choose to have contact with -- the concept of "It is not you I do not trust..."  Deborah, even before this situation, would tell us to trust her infrastructure to take care of things.  All it takes is one.  I learned that in the joint.  Had I had the temerity, the desire, and the willingness to do as it is believed I would have wanted to do, I would have done it, and only a bullet would've stopped me, which is why that bullet needed to be expended, for the very reason I told you.

"and it reached the point where you decided to confront her after numerous attempts to get you to stop."

The only efforts I was made aware of before "Mr. Falkner, put your hands against the wall" were from the fans.  Fans I hated, did not trust, and did not have any regard for their motives -- with respect to either myself or her.

Most of Deborah's fans, at least of that vintage, should've been chucked into the ether, even if it meant Deborah were forced to retire as a direct result. Not only as a function of stories like the above, but it was clear there was a general idea that she was on their beck and call.

And do not think for 15 seconds I did not try to get official word, even if it was to stop.  To stop me, you were either going to have to shoot me or get one of the three people I _would_ trust on the situation (and they were all named "Gibson" -- and one of them is, regretfully, no longer with us).

I don't take hints very well, bitch.  (See much of the content of Part Three, including much non-Deb material.)  At this point, about the only hint which MIGHT take would be lethal.  That's why they should've killed me 25 years ago -- because not only did that mean the belief had passed the reasonable person test, but it also invalidated all antecedent acts, within or outside of the Deborah situation.

I felt Deborah was a rape (from somebody else) waiting to happen.  And the only wrong I now believe with respect to it is that I believe that the media, etc. would've feasted on it -- in the same vein as they literally feasted and tap-danced on the grave of Amy Winehouse.  I gave the world too much credit:  They wanted a spectacle, no matter who it hurt!

And a lot of people weren't happy when I didn't give them one on Court TV.

"You aren't the hero you thought you were being, and ever since then you embraced being the heroic villain with tendencies and ideas that criminally insane people get shocked by."

Oh nonononononono, shithead.  There's nothing heroic left of this.  It's one of the reasons I've even told my family, to great sense of alarm, that God has to literally choke me out to keep me from doing the most monstrous of acts.  He has purpose for me here, but, to carry it out, He has to make damn sure I don't exercise either free will or freedom.

The last heroic act I felt I made was the instant before the two plainclothes cops showed up.

But the fact of the matter is, if that's invalid, so is everything else.  At that point, there's no "heroic villain" at all -- and it's just someone you need taken out.

If there is a first flaw I will admit to, it is that I see no good in the world at all -- it all comes from the outside.

I also do not believe in bullshitting people -- and the problem is that it appears life itself in America (and far more than just here) is reliant on not only the ability to bullshit the fuck out of people, but to accept being bullshitted and turn off your damn brain and be the ignoramus you (and most of America) is required to be to be functional or enjoy anything!

"No wonder you frolic on a message board with dozens of Nazis and history remembers you as nothing more than an obsessed stalker who most likely wanted her dead."

I could ask you "Which one?", but I've been banned from them both.  (Are we talking Market Ticker, Zero Hedge, or both?)

Let's address both of these points:  Unlike the likes of you (and this basically relates to any stripe of Americana at this point -- again, the reliance on stupidity and acceptance to enjoy anything), I want to carry out research as to my personal and otherwise opponents.  I want to know what Karl Denninger is thinking, and not be blind-sided should (and, I will freely admit, WHEN) I believe his side gets sufficient power.  (Which I give 3-24 months...)

I do not believe in freedom, not in the way America falsely views it or the rights Deborah appears to conflate with the concept.  Neither is true -- you have to be of "legitimate purpose" to even think of getting the first (and, even then, that requires that legitimate purpose not destroy your freedoms in the first place) and you have to be "acceptable" to have the freedom to be who you are (which see much of the marginalized demographics of this country -- many of whom, it is believed, they don't even have the right to be who they are, under pain of no less than death!).

On the second, if I wanted her dead, I'd have tried it -- and we wouldn't be talking.  The fact is, that is what people believed I was going to do, and, because solely of that fact, the NYPD failed her safety, their safety, and that of not only their citizenry, but the one in my then-hometown by not killing me outright as a direct result of that belief.  And that I didn't want to has no bearing on that result.

The MOMENT that belief passed the actionable threshold, they needed to open fire, even by sending their compatriots in my then-hometown to do it for them.  And no other result would've been sufficient.  They wanted the double-spectacle -- and they only got one.

In what you say on the back side of this, you get to the core of why This Blog Should Not Exist.  Both as a function of the protection of law enforcement AND a lifetime of acts for which there can be no Earthly recompense.

"You've been relegated to nothing more than a Talkin' Broadway post, and a small footnote on Debbie Gibson's wikipedia page, and it's all you've been, yet you act like you're some hunted down renegade, daring anyone who doesn't like you to shoot you."

Pretty much, but that goes far beyond the simple concept of Gibson.

That alone would be sufficient, but it is no longer a necessary condition, for two reasons.

First, the classic question I love to ask morons like you:  Who the fuck are you to expect any better?  And, please note, that's universal.  If I'm going to be seen as you say, then the fact remains that (and people have told me this since) I am a threat to anyone I come into contact with -- on an a priori basis.

Second, the very real economic reality, especially if you are a Conservative (going double if you're a Libertarian, since personal responsibility can only come from shooting those who refuse) that, to actually deal with the debt and deficits, every person of my like MUST die.  And now.  I realize this doesn't fit your narrative, as it especially relates to the specific post -- but the fact of the matter is, if you don't like what I'm doing, I don't take hints very well.  You pretty much have to put a gun to my head and be prepared, then, to pull the trigger.

If you don't believe me, cost me my home by cutting off the Federal spending and see what happens pretty quick.  And you CAN take that as a threat -- many claims to some of the programs I get take years.  Mine took maybe 3 - 3 1/2 months.  It was because even they know it's a bribe to keep me on the straight and narrow.

"You're the homeless guy people give Jack Links to for some good karma, quit acting like you're the savior of the world. You lied so people could think you changed,"

The author and the creator of the documentary, Mark Dooley, would beg to sorely differ with you.

About 24 or so months ago, he was at a showing in the country of New Zealand, and was, correctly, queried by a female viewer of the film as to my continued danger.

He (and I apologize to him if he ever reads this -- he asked me not to respond to trolls, and it's clear you are one, but this is for more than your edification) told me to my face he watered it down.

He knows.  Trust me, he damn well knows that the only way to get rid of the threat is to put me in the ground.  He's just more tactful about it than I am.  And he treated me well and fairly, thank you very much.  Both to my face and to the media and any viewer who asked the question at a post-showing Q&A.

If anything, I've changed for the worse, realizing every positive act I have ever committed in my life has been, on some level, a criminal act.

I'm actually genuinely shocked that the other superfans chronicled in the movie didn't shoot me -- and you'd think they had cause, given that putting me in the movie ties them down to the same extent, in a number of viewers' eyes.  Putting us in the same movie factually endangers them.

So what's your excuse?

(PS:  Said Federal benefits have kept a roof over my head pushing 16 of the 25 years.  So let's get the facts right.)

"when in reality, the only change that happens around here is your profile from "54, opinionated, and not usually very happy," to "55, opinionated, and not usually very happy." Think about that while you shitpost on that Nazi College Football board of yours"

rec.sport.football.college?

You do realize I am openly calling on several former correction officers and military who post to the site to do exactly as you've said -- not only on a "threat prevention" level but on a very economic/political level.

But if you think that place is Nazi, the two I mentioned before would be even worse.

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"nobody":  You best have me out of the picture.  I don't think I have to tell you the reality of what's going on here -- even though I am well-tasked here and am willing to remain here and on-task.

You got a set of balls, or, like the rest of the Nazis, do you just love to talk and think you know what you're doing?

Remember, son, and this is no exaggeration:  It took a literal New York Police Department All Points Bulletin and at least nine NYPD cars to shut me up for about a year, add a couple months before I started posting again on the Net after release...

Again, what's your damn excuse?

This Blog Should Not Exist: Part Three

And now, for the long awaited Part Three, and a full exposition of why This Blog Should Not Exist, and neither should I.  I could see this blog terminated because of one or both of these posts.  Not only that, but I have a suspicion of the previous flags.  They may be coming from Team Gibson...

Twenty-five years ago tonight -- May 24, 1998 -- I was arrested for stalking Debbie Gibson in New York.  And the New York City Police Department failed in it's duty to protect and serve her, her family, her workplace, and the general public.

The New York City Police Department had one and only one duty:  To eliminate me with the rightful lethal force of law and make an example of it so that others would not go down the same path.

There is no question at all that I should've been killed that night, and that everyone from Gibson to my own family should sue the Hell out of the NYPD for not doing so.

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And now we get to an extended part of the "Why?" -- which goes both backward and forward, and involves far more than Gibson.

1) As I am probably going to tell "nobody" when I get to his response two weeks ago as to how I lied in Repeat Attenders:  Stalking/Harassment/Menacing/etc. is a crime given a "reasonable person test" of what a person is going to do.  Once you gain the power to make that degree of an assumption as to what a person does, there is, then, no limit to that power.

A little Inside Baseball:  The judge who sentenced me, Judge Sackett -- and he was one of the more lenient ones -- laid the belief that I was a walking Mark David Chapman.

Yes, I was likened to John Lennon's murderer.

So, at that point, I have three questions for you:

* What has changed in 25 years?  In short, nothing under the law, and a general feeling that things have gotten worse personally (I'll explain that later).  A reasonable person would assume (wrongly, but remember -- my thoughts have no merit in this discussion!) that the course of conduct continues and something is in plans.  (To which I remind "nobody":  Deborah's third tour in a year starts tomorrow night in Niagara Falls, NY!)

* Would this not mean that the "reasonable person" result is that (it is believed) I am not only going to kill her, but most anything else I care about as well?  If you read "The Gift of Fear", there is a full chapter about the stalker of the first person Gavin de Becker had to put into a safehouse.  Why?  Because the person was believed to have actuated his plans to sufficient point by killing his parents.

People who walk this path DO kill their families.  Regretfully, my brother and his family now have been told this.  I had spent the best part of the last 25 years incommunicado with the family, and, given political and personal difference (and the concept that there is no Earthly sufficient remorse I can give, for two reasons I will, again, get to), it may be time to make that arrangement permanent.

* If I'm going to be seen as that degree of a threat to roughouse, disrobe, rape, and then murder someone I cared about more than most anything, who is anyone else -- from the metaphorical King of England to the bum on the street -- to think they're going to get better?  I've even had to play this card on said brother.

2) It shouldn't have gotten that far.

* Since an unwanted hug is a fourth-degree sexual assault in Wisconsin, I think it safe to say that I committed enough such crimes in the University of Wisconsin-River Falls alone to be put in prison for the rest of my life.

* But it took literal Title IX lawsuits, alleging no less than either rape or the belief I was, to finally get me expelled.  So much so, the county sheriff banned me from even walking in most parts of the town.

* By the time I was allowed (wrongly) to re-enroll after being thrown out of same college at another college in Eau Claire a year-plus later (a year-plus during which my whereabouts were very carefully monitored and restricted, for the belief that I was prowling for a serial-rape victim at most every turn, and that I am now banned from that entire community!), I became the first person ever to be banned from the basketball arena, because they thought I was going to do that same thing to the pompon squad -- the only reason I selected Eau Claire in the first place.

* And, when I so re-enrolled, a Campus Security officer from River Falls transferred (and I would give a real chance she WAS transferred with me in mind) to Eau Claire.

* When the campus found that out, they had to go to the local TV station (who did about four or so home games a year) and rework their halftime coverage as a student-conduct and student-safety issue.  Up until the 1991-92 season, their halftime coverage began with the pompon squad.  1992-93, welcome to the WEAU studios and "The Ken Anderson Show" instead.  (I know neither what they do 30 years on, or it's format.)

* And one more thing Eau Claire has not actuated yet:  My degree from them is now null and void.  My arrest, since the Course of Conduct went back through Eau Claire (and used University resources both there and Milwaukee), violated the agreement I made not to get thrown out of my second school after the above incidents occurred.  So that degree is void.

Now am I proud of any of this?  Absolutely not.  But it was only when I combined a statement I made during Repeat Attenders ("nobody", I'll get to you and all that in a bit!), conflated that with the political realities (and societal ones as well), and came to a very disturbing conclusion...

3) Since Deborah and her message were, factually (at least three times (post-Feb. 1989, 1990, and post-Feb. 1992 onward) -- and people can believe my arrest prevented a fourth if so chosen!), the only things which prevented me from being the serial rapist two Wisconsin college campuses would've sworn in court I was, the only real conclusion I can draw is that I should've been said serial rapist, and that I would've had a better chance at societal success by finally actuating the terrorist threat I was on those two campuses.

(And anyone who think I'm lying and that I _did_ actually rape quite a few women at those two colleges -- the only evidence I can state otherwise is that they took my DNA in New York.  You can bet money it was crosschecked with any information those two schools had on any unsolved event in the relevant amount of time.)

And, worse, the only reason I haven't since is lies and delusion as well.  That being that level of a monster was the only correct end result of my previous conduct, and might (given our toxic masculinity fetish) have actually allowed me to, in the eyes of society, amount to something -- which, in many men's eyes, would grant that right in the first place!

(Which see two serial rapist pedos who've been made no less than President -- the other being Billy Bob Blow Job!)

And note:  In 2) and 3), we're still over two years from when I laid eyes on Deborah the first time, face to face.

So the only realistic conclusion is I never should've been given the chance in the first place.

But, bluntly, she sustained me for the better part of the four years between Oheka Castle and my arrest.

Which eventually led to my arrest 25 years ago today -- from which I should've been shot and killed instantaneously, without mercy, and with great ceremony.

Because, had one ounce of due diligence in the minimum two weeks (but, let's be frank, there's a Broadway website who flagged down the NYPD over two MONTHS previous to Broadway Bares 1998) between what it was believed to be when it flipped over to criminal conduct and when I showed up, there was only one correct outcome:  My death.  With neither mercy nor compassion.

Because the belief was that my actions that night would be no short of fatal.  So much so that reports were coming in that night from the fandom to each other that I had a firearm, and was prepared to shoot the Palace Theatre up.  (No such firearm existed, but the "reasonable person" test was met.)

I said, and it stands, that I wanted to carry a lethal weapon -- a knife -- on my person that, in the event I was approached to sufficient belief I was a threat to Deborah, to carry out that threat (instead) on them.  And the only reason I didn't was exactly what happened.

And the New York Police Department uncategorically FAILED to protect and serve Deborah, their community, or the public in general in not doing so.  They needed to shoot me and throw my body into a woodchipper -- or, as one of the bigots on "The Market Ticker" has on his signature to his discussion responses, to put my head on a pike for the next ten generations to know some favors carry too high of a price.

And also note:  None of this even gets into the mountain of charges which were put against me by the Gibson fan community.  (But it was that mountain of e-mails, contacts to Team Gibson (many put in the "Whacko File" -- No "H", Karen (and no, that's not a current usage of the term -- the main person monitoring such contact was in fact Deborah's sister Karen, who had a management role in Deborah's career at one point or another)...)

And that mountain of charges _alone_ was sufficient under the law at the time.

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I implied earlier that I would tell you the identity of the only person who could earn the mantle of actually being hated by Deborah.  It IS me, as anyone intelligent could probably have suspected.

It is not only that I have turned profoundly (if not poisonously!) negative over the last 25 years (especially over the last six with the Orange Fuck!).  And Deborah has said, her entire career has been a rebellion against negativity.

Well, there are several realities I've learned:  Through therapy, observation, and introspection:

* There is no right to life.

* There is no right to liberty.

* There is no right to pursue happiness.

The last two are contingent on one of two things:  I've always said that they are privileges of the state -- and, in most cases, that's exactly what they are.  Because they can not only declare what you are going to do (even if you aren't going to do it -- and I'll address THAT with "nobody" as well, if I remember to do so.), but they can enforce it.

To say:  "You'd have it if you didn't if you didn't violate the rights of everyone else." is not only denial of reality, but also the fact that certain of us exist as violations of the rights of everyone else.  Take away those violations, and I die.  Period-end.

The second is simply taking it by force, and having the societal power, force of will, whatever you want to say about it to enforce THAT.  You see that in the likes of the BLM movement.

But, factually, it does come down to who you are and are not, and who the victim is or is not.  THAT is now the extent of the law.

* Down here, evil and violence win, and often dictate the terms.

And if you don't believe that now, just wait 18 months (if you get that far!!!).  Hell, unless the debt ceiling is raised or otherwise subverted, you won't have to wait two or three.

I do believe that the next President will be Trump or DeSantis -- and, this time, the White Right gets the blood they want.

* Stupidity also wins.  You see it every day in this blog, with what you have to believe to actually be a sports fan today.

And to be immune to this, especially on a positivity level, you have to take nearly a cult-like view of that positivity and basically ignore everything which is actually going on.  And, yes, I do believe Deborah is guilty of exactly this, on such a syrupy level that I had to realize, on a fundamental level, that the very concepts and personage which led me to not be a serial rapist, even if true, were something I was not entitled to and that it would have been better for me to be said serial rapist -- and if I end up in prison for life at age 20, then I wasn't going to amount to anything in the first place and, unlike what really happened, I didn't waste another nine years trying to delude myself differently, or another 25 trying to hold the line when it really never should have been held.

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So what from here?

I don't know.

I would like it to become a goal to start getting banned from all the Nazi Republican states -- Florida and Texas being at the top of the list.

I do not see myself making the 2024 election without getting arrested.  And, as I will state to "nobody", he probably has an interest in seeing to it I'm arrested in the next 24-36 hours.

I have literally had it with trying to explain to a nation of idiots what is about to happen -- and then see at least half these idiots actually want it.

It is a nation to which I never should've been born.

Keep fucking with what little I have left to lose, and the intersection of Fuck Around Boulevard and Find Out Avenue is coming.

This Blog Should Not Exist: Prelude To Part Three In Two Weeks

More as an instructive function, I'm bringing forward "nobody" again.

He had this to say today, tangentially to the May 10 Daily...

"Finally got around to that documentary you never told us about. Tell me, how easy was it to lie about everything you said in the interview?"

First, let's get the rest of the group up to speed...

I know there are any number of ways you can see this documentary (most are a function of some degree of subscription service, either Broadway-related or documentary-related), but, a number of years ago, an Australian documentarian (Mark Dooley) did a documentary on Broadway superfans entitled Repeat Attenders.

Coulda sworn I've mentioned it before, but...

The first interview (and, to date, last) I have done on the Gibson arrest 25 years ago was the main "hook" of the documentary, probably much to the chagrin of the legitimate theatre superfans otherwise chronicled therein.

(Though I will say that it is good evidence of the situation I spoke of when I talked about the Chiefs superfan headed to prison for robbery:  The only difference between "superfan" and "stalker" being the permission of the entity the person is a fan of.

And don't get me started on the new parlance of "stan"...)

But I think "nobody" has dropped into what will probably be a quite instructive exercise.

So I asked him the following in the comments, and we'll see if/when he responds.  I am interested in what he says, this is not rhetorical:

If you believe everything I said in Repeat Attenders was a lie, then what is (your version of) the truth with respect to the Debbie Gibson incident?

I have a couple theories, both of which would go a long way to explain why This Blog Should Not Exist, but I want to hear you say it...

I also have a theory on several posts rendered "Sensitive Content", and at least one action taken against my social media accounts...  If this theory is correct, it could well be an official act, ifyouknowwhatIamsaying...

UPDATE:  You can read his answer below.  I'll respond as either part of Part Three in two weeks or in a 3.001.

Oh, did some 509 bitch decide they wanted to stand up for Pedo State?

I've had one of my posts flagged.

And it probably isn't one you might think, at first glance.

I got one of my Penn State posts flagged for "sensitive content", probably in an effort to try to take it down.

Son, and I don't know who you are...  You could probably flag THIS ENTIRE BLOG (and the Final Fantasy XI one which preceded it) as "sensitive content" -- and you ain't seen nothing yet.

Wait a month and a half.  I'll show you "sensitive content"...

This Blog Shouldn't Exist, Part 2.03: Have Some Guts or Shut The Fuck Up, Karl!

(Yep, another unscheduled part.)

And another unscheduled part based on a post by Karl Denninger on The Market Ticker.  I'll react to both the post and the comments section (or at least the first two pages thereto).

In Denninger's continuing call to dismantle the public American education system, this post completely forgets some very concrete facts which basically distill down to one thing:

We have a bunch of the Libertarians on that site who agree with the racist views of Scott Adams, but forget openly another part of his views, endemic to this particular situation:  The fact that you have only two options on violent youth:  Watch other people die, or kill them yourself, even if it's your own child.

Today's Denninger screed has but only real, honest, legitimate, and intellectually correct response:

GET YOUR GUN OUT OF YOUR ANUS, GET YOUR CLOTHES ON, SHUT YOUR SOCIAL-MEDIA CAMERA OFF, AND SHOOT US!!

Adams himself would tell you fuckers the same thing!  And, on top of that, it isn't simply my view on Libertarianism (that the sole source of personal responsibility in America comes at the hot end of another person's smoking gun).

1) Dingleberry:  "Separate a people from the consequences of their actions....you get a nation of fools."

It isn't just a function of there being no consequences, but the consequences which DO exist would actually be improvements on many of these people's lives -- real or perceived.

Let's get right down to brass tacks, Karl:  If society could tolerate most youth to be out and about during the day, there'd be no need for school.  We miseducate our children grossly on the first part, and there's no benefit at all for some children not to go to jail or prison (just like there isn't for an increasing number of adults).

I was literally out getting food at a local restaurant two days ago.  Two older people walked in and promptly marched off, unchallenged, with two mobile orders about $75 in total.  A third homeless man got the third call to the cops to that place in about 30-40 minutes.  And I can tell you, without question, none of the three would've given a damn about "consequences" or anything else of that ilk.

Another anecdote is the basis for the post:  The Denver death of a 17-year-old who admittedly had no business on the outside and shot two school administrators trying to pat him down.  Prison would have been better for him -- and he'd already been expelled from another school just two months before!

A third:  Some point in my homeless stint in San Francisco, I bought a liter of Vanilla Coke and was immediately accosted by a White idiot wanting it.  If the cops had not shown up within about another 10 seconds, he'd have gotten it -- over his head...

But this has nothing to do with a lack of consequences, because the "consequences" are of no deterrent to them.  The only real deterrent the law has had for DECADES is prison rape, as one good example.  What are you going to do, hire "Bubba" as a disciplinary feature of the school -- and you get enough trouble from a student, it's backdoor party time?

Jail is ZERO DETERRENT.  The only reason I haven't reoffended with Ms. Gibson is I DIDN'T WANT TO -- and, even then, with the laws in question, is there really a point to having released me at all?  (You'll get that in about 60 days in Part Three of this series.)

2) Denninger:  "State Constitutions may provide, and the Federal government may demand, that a "free public education" and "to the limits of each student's ability" each district is "obligated" to provide same, irrespective of cost disparity, but the last 20+ years of this crap has led to the premise that a student who is incapable of doing grade-level work or is disruptive to the class or school environment, whether with outbursts or even violence, cannot be and is not immediately and permanently removed from said class environment."  

Only way you are doing that -- not only as a function of law enforcement, but also as an economic function, an education function, a societal function -- is to shoot the kid.  Especially if you agree with the racist Adams.

The situation in Denver is a nice example of why you can't even jail or imprison the kid and expect him to improve.  Even for those of us only BELIEVED to want to be violent (see myself vs. Ms. Gibson), jail is a perfect environment to learn there is only one solution to most problems with other people in this society -- you either make it clear that you will force an answer/conduct from the other party or you won't get one!

In society, we call this a "threat".  Some call it a terrorist act.  But the fact is, to what gain, to a lot of these people, is doing a damn thing that needs to be done?  That can be teachers as well as students.

3) And here's the money shot from Denninger:  "If you advocate for leaving such individuals in the school system where other, peaceful kids are -- no matter the mix between the two in terms of percentages -- you are a criminal and should be expelled from society to starve and when you die of starvation your carcass and that of your entire family should be left to rot so your highest and best function, that of food for turkey vultures, is fulfilled."

Then you should immediately be identifying those children and eliminating them and their parents from the gene pool RIGHT NOW.

You'd have killed me by age ten, by the way, under the same concept.  By eight or nine (I forget if this was before or after my mother died, but it was in that one year), my family was exploring expulsion from the house for me to a reform school.  Some in my family have believed, at least for a time, my misconducts (decades before Gibson) killed my mother through stress -- and, if they did that, I got them both -- my dad seven or eight years later.

But the fact remains, Karl, if you believe this bullshit you're spewing:  On every conceivable level, you need to eliminate (KILL) anyone in society who you believe (and can get past a jury of twelve) to have no other purpose than as food -- for turkey vultures or as (as you've said a number of times) "long pork" for your own consumption.

Because, even on a more baseline level:  We take your resources, we increase your costs (inflation/money supply), we have destroyed any hope you have of a national infrastructure (because the largest city you MIGHT permit in a "new America" of your creation can't be more than about 50-100K in population), etc.

4) User "Joancrawford":  "I've come to the realization that nothing short of segregation will fix this mess. Most blacks will not tolerate any rules comin' down from "da white mon", so let them create their own little hells scape skoos."

That segregation, Joan, would have to be more than just separate schools.  You can't have us in your economy or even presence (and that's more than Black/White) -- and trying to starve us out just would mean we would have nothing to lose by attempting to rob you -- we're dead anyway if it gets that far.

4A)  To emphasize the point, she added:  "Addendum to my above screed: Todd was a very large boy who approached me one day with a raging hard-on and attempted to rape me during school hours. I escaped before one of his buds started toward me to hold me down.  I told no one and of course nothing was done. Todd was periodically suspended throughout the school year, which he considered a vacation. This was, btw, in a very wealthy school district in Arlington, Virginia."

He had value, Joan -- hence, he had the right to rape -- and, trust me, if your report of him already being hard is true (and I have no dispute to it), you would not have been his first rape of that day or even that part of the day.

My guess is that he was an athlete, between his school suspensions.  You would think, at some point, that if that was on the table, there would be (if there were such a right in general) the right to basically make it clear that one more step and his parents can collect his body.

5) User "Rporth":  "Homeschool or die. I know a gal who recently quit her job teaching 2nd graders in Rapid City of all places. Kids acted up so bad they removed the chairs, kids out of control. Fbombs constantly. No discipline."

Rapid City, SD.  You'd think, with that governor of yours, they'd basically take a National Guardsman to that school, walk in front of the class, pump his shotgun once, and make a last stand to get the point across.

Look, I was a piece of work in school (see above).  But if it's THAT BAD, someone's gotta get froggy against them or nothing is ever going to get done.

Karl's daughter Sarah went through there (and this is with one of the more virulent MAGA governors and not the nation's largest city in any respect!), and could not stay one more moment than necessary because of the feral zoo it had become.

I could go on, but it comes down to one fact:  You want better?  You're going to have to shoot your way to better.

I could make a very real case today that the Deagel Group 70% kill off in the next 33 months either must happen or damned close, and you idiots on the Right better make sure it's the 50-70% you want gone.

So get started or shut the fuck up.  You hate it now?  Just wait...

This Blog Should Not Exist, Part 2.01: An Unscheduled Part As We Await New York And Beyond

(For the record, the grand jury in the Trump-Daniels situation did not meet on Wednesday, so push everything back at least one additional day.)

As I said before, I did not intend to do a "2.01", but, given the present circumstances in New York City and beyond, I felt the need to.

(And, also for the record, the fact that Trump would be indicted in New York, once this grand jury finishes, is mere coincidence to my posting this.  Though it would give me insight to see if they actually DO treat him like most other criminals.)

As everyone awaits the apparent criminal indictment of a former President of the United States of America, I sit here and think of everything going on and I basically came to the very quick conclusion that much of this also -- but for separate reasons -- falls under "This Blog Should Not Exist".

For those keeping score:  A grand jury in New York, one of several impaneled for various Trump criminal charges, is seeing if there is evidence to charge Trump with crimes associated with an apparent "hush money" payment to Stormy Daniels, the porn actress who told us all how little manhood The Orange Oompa-Loompa really has.

Admittedly, among the type of stuff he might well be charged with, it's about as minor as it might come, except for a couple of very interesting realities...

First, and probably central to "This Blog Should Not Exist"is the concept of not just there being the classic thought of "Two Sets Of Laws", but Trump's central campaign rhetoric in 2016:  That he's above the law, and so is anyone of enough "legitimate purpose" to society.

Now, I will be the first to admit that the law is no longer a function of what you do.  It's a function of who you are, and, often more importantly, who you are not.

That's one level of it.  When one states, as Trump did, that he can murder someone in broad daylight on 5th Avenue in New York City and get away with it, that's another.

When you state that, should you have the importance, you can grab any woman by the pussy and be applauded for it, that adds another level to it.

And when a bunch of men (and women who wish to be subjugated to all fours) vote for you to be President because of those two statements, that adds further.

If that's the case, then, where does that stop?

Clue:  It doesn't.  There are two very real reasons I use "The Purge Prayer", as I call it, on this blog:

1) The mere existence of certain demographics is seen as a stain on the mortal souls of those of the dominant demographic.

and 2) If he and his (and I think DeSantis would get us closer to this point -- because I think Pudding-To-Mouth Disease in Florida actually has the guts to at least start to pull it off!) get re-elected, I see that becoming a reality in this country, very quickly.

I could sit here and list any number of reasons that would end badly for me -- but let's remember that I spent almost a decade homeless in San Francisco.  That, especially given the "blue hive" mentality of how many Americans view the American cities, would be enough to see me gone.

But the other part of why I say this falls under a window of "This Blog Should Not Exist" is the explosion in talk of threats once Saint Donald of Jabba The Hutt is arrested.

I read one Tweet last Friday night propose that the war begins on Monday (this past Monday).  Protip, moron:  The Second American Civil War started with the George Floyd killing and riots three years ago!   

I read of one proposal of a 10,000-man human shield around Mar-A-Lago to protect him.

And two protests in New York might've drawn 20 people -- between them.

I have some statements and some questions for the White Right Men's Rights Movement in this country, known as the Oathkeepers/Proud Boys/Republican Voter Base/etc.:

1. You want to get crime in the cities under control?  The Second Amendment, as the courts have MISapplied it, gives you the framework.  Get your gun out of your anus, turn your camera off, put your clothes on, and get busy.
2. Do you honestly believe that you will get inflation or the money supply under control in this country (as the Conservative/Libertarian movements would desire it) without the immediate removal of half the American population...

Oh, that reminds me.  It's time to call Karl Denninger a hypocrite -- I believe again...

In comments to an article today on his The Market Ticker blog on the latest Federal Reserve day of meeting -- today -- on discussion of the raising of interest rates.

He responded, and threatened to ban, a disagreeing user on the interest/money supply policies needed to be done thusly:

"So the cry rooms and dead Americans it is for you [other user redacted]?  Care for a banhammer sandwich considering that a million people are dead as a direct result of that bullshit?"

First off, Karl:  It's not one million and you know it.  Think at least an order of magnitude higher -- and it's your own exposition of some of the cooking of the numbers which is PART of the reason I draw that conclusion.

(Another part is Long COVID:  A supposedly encouraging survey of five million in the hospital says Long COVID is down to about 1 in 16 Omicron cases.  But what if everyone in the country has had COVID, as many believe?  That's the better part of 22 million people!!)

Second, Karl:  Especially as a Libertarian who is into shunning people and the eradication of the medical industry, etc. -- isn't a mass-death to COVID event what you **WANT**?  (Especially to the believed demographics most susceptible to die to it, as you've said on your blog three years now!)  The problem you have is that you don't have control over the process, and you have no means to get that control, for you have the same cowardice the Proud Boys have!

Dovetailing back to that general list, here's some questions you should ask your remaining close Republican friends:

• If you are that certain that the 2020 election was stolen, why did you allow the Congress to seat?  Because the moment they named Nancy Pelosi Speaker of the House, even a protracted dispute over the Presidency would not allow your man to remain in power past January 20th (of 2021) at noon.
• If you are that certain that the 2020 election was stolen, why did you allow the 2022 midterm election to take place?  
• Did you not realize that, on January 6th, 2021, you had significant inside help in the Capitol (Capitol Police, Secret Service, etc. -- portions of all sympathetic to Trump), and that all you really needed was the nutsack between your legs and open fire, and it's Game Over (in all conceivable matters) for the rest of us?  You'd literally have gotten to the "Biden can call a press conference, Trump can call in the 82nd Airborne" situation people have talked about in such a scenario.
• Or is it literally that you can't do anything without Trump's permission?
• Why are you not literally raising militias to seize the "blue hives"?  Why are you not seizing state governments like the West Coast states to reverse everything from city crime to homelessness to "Woke" wars, etc.?

I could go on, if people want, but start with those five (sets of) questions.  And then understand in how many different ways, non-personally, that would mean my end.

This Blog Should Not Exist, Part Two: For That Which No Earthly Penalty Will Suffice...

(For the record, I was going to do this article anyway.  I did find the theory somewhat interesting, but felt one question does need to be asked and answered to the regard of the situation posited.)

In a world where someone would've put this theory up some time ago, I might've posted this closer to Part Three of this series, which will be posted on the 25th anniversary of my New York arrest (and should've been the anniversary of me being made into Swiss cheese by the NYPD, but I'll explain more of that in May...), Karl Denninger of The Market Ticker posted this discussion on the concept that he felt (It was for the original US government support of the COVID-19 vaccines, but it could also apply to Trump's lack of action in joining the movement he fostered on January 6th, 2021.) that Donald Trump should commit seppuku, and do so publicly.

For this, Twitter slapped Denninger with a 12-hour Twitter-jail penalty.  He responded with this commentary on his The Market Ticker blog.

The original concept is that he believes that certain people will only change their behavior upon being removed from society through shaming, and that enough shame will bring self-introspection and force the change in behavior.  This is applied to the "body positivity" movement, calling people "crazy", etc. -- believing that, since no real change in suicide rates results from shaming people, that forcing people out of society (or at least of certain portions of it) through being shamed out is the only way to force people to not be so fat/crazy/pro-vaxx/whatever you wish to do it with).

It is when he references his 12-hour Twitter disqualification that he makes a very fundamental distinction:  He is against suicide as a function of despair (which is the rule Twitter got him on:  encouraging self-harm).  What he is NOT against is what he considers a very different animal:  That a person -- having committed an act (or a series of acts) so egregious that no Earthly penalty will suffice, no Earthly apology is possible, and/or has brought sufficient shame to his or her family name, etc. that the action hurts them -- SHOULD have the right to honorably forfeit the remainder of his or her life and present themselves for God's judgement on the matter.

He believes the rot in our society only exists because we do not make this distinction.

(For the record, as I will explain in May in Part Three of this series, I do believe I more than qualify, and for far more than the Debbie Gibson situation.  But it is Debbie being involved which will prevent that -- the Federal government is more than aware of a previous intention of suicide/honorable presentation for God's judgement, and believes I am insane enough to still take Gibson with me, as of...  2004?  2005??  I know, because I saw notes of my therapist being so notified while we were meeting.)

But it is that I do believe I qualify which raises one question in my mind regarding this:

I have long said online that I have such a sufficient reputation (and this was years before the arrest) that there really wasn't much you could do to shame me out or whatever.

What do, or CAN, you do to a person for whom it is believed by "civilized society" that such an act has occurred, but the person refuses sufficient shame to take their own life in that manner?

At what point, Mr. Denninger, does that necessity of shame require "civilized society" to kill a person, presenting them to God immediately for His judgement, if the individual either refuses or the distinction (between despair suicide and honorable presentation) is not made?

This does NOT necessarily mean God will judge harshly -- it only means the same as what Karl believes is honorable for a sufficiently-disgraced person to do, and must do.

This Blog Should Not Exist: Part One: The Night Owl And Her Hellcat

That title is no accident.

This blog should not exist.  I should've been shot and killed by the New York Police Department in May of 1998.  Cold blood.  Such that they still are removing brain matter from the side of the Palace Theatre, 25 years later.

I'll go into far more detail (if I remember to do so) on the 25th anniversary of when in about three months.

I decided to do this series (which will contain at least three posts -- two of which will be posted now and in the next day or two, the second of the three is a line of thinking some have which forces the above premise, given what was believed about me that I will explain in the third, but that third will have to wait for the 25th anniversary of my arrest in May).

But today, a Yahoo! headline article, done as part of Debbie Gibson's appearance last week on The Masked Singer, was in tribute to what Debbie was doing when she got the call -- grieving the one-year anniversary of the death of the one woman to whom she was almost absolutely inseparable:  Her Warrior Queen (her words, not mine!!!), Her #1 Fan (and it was reciprocated), and her mom and Momager, Diane Gibson.

The article, which I suggest you give a full read and viewing, has Debbie stating that her mother is responsible for her not having the #MeToo stories we hear far too often.

Debbie is right.  She's damned right.

I should know.  Diane Gibson was one leggy HELLCAT!!

(Don't tell anyone about the first adjective, but Howard Stern made note of it in a 1995 appearance, and Howard was most certainly correct.)

But it's the second part of that which I state more here.  I know from very personal experience, as well as anecdotes from the rest of the "fan landscape" or "fanscape" of Gibson fans back in the day.  (I refused then, and still now, to call it a "fanbase" -- a base implying unity which did not exist.  And, as I found out later, this did not end with my forcible removal from it.)

One of the infamous stories Debbie would tell about her mother back in the day was the infamous "Carrot Routine" -- where a prospective date for Debbie would be brought before Mom -- and the Italian wit of Diane would have her get a large cutting board, a long carrot, and a sharp knife.

"When are you starting the date??"  CHOP!!!!

"And when are you coming home???"  CHOP!  CHOP!!  CHOP!!!  CHOP!!!!  CHOP!!!!!

That usually ended most discussions on possible dates for Debbie back in high school.

A second story was the first story I read when I joined (this was probably 3+ years before I stopped being on most speaking terms with the "fanscape") the then-online unofficial fanzine "Between the Lines".

Debbie was a guest star on the early-90's syndicated cop show Street Justice.  It was apparently shooting in Vancouver, and several Deb-fans found out where and got on the set!  And Diane let them have it, going so far as to threaten the end of fan access to Debbie.  Very loudly!!!!

As I said, I also had personal experience with Diane.  

One of a number of examples, and one of the better ones:  A 1995 meet and greet in Nashville, after I finished with Debbie, had me get up the bravery to try to get a picture with her mother!!  (What can I say, she was hot and I liked her attitude!!)

I got a taste of the latter as she tried to decline, needing intervention from the daughter and the gut feeling that she could get a vibe I wasn't like most fans ("You seem to have that vibe about you" -- and remember, this was 1995 and only the second time we met -- the arrest was just over three years down the road).

But that's just setup for where I want to go with this post -- and it's both endemic to the Yahoo! article and the conspiracy-theory nature of this blog.  Go with me on this one.

You see, there's a dirty little secret a lot of people never get told.  The entire nature of the music industry is rigged.  The record labels (at least before the Internet really took over, and still to an extent today) buy who wins awards and gets #1 singles and all that stuff.

(Now, it SHOULD be 100% illegal, but the FCC has basically allowed it to stand.  What they don't tell you is that doing away with it does away with the entire music industry, full square.  What they try to pass it off as is that the buying and selling of airplay is done by independent promoters.  The record companies pay off THEM, THEY go to the radio stations and dictate who gets played how much, etc. and so forth and so on.)

Why do I state this?

Before I do:  From here, this entire situation is speculation, innuendo, and theory.  And I can say honestly that it is one of only two stories in which I know Debbie will never give the straight answer -- in fact, part of the story is that all parties, to agree to do what they did, had to sign off no one tells anyone anything.

(The other???  Wait three months for the one person on this Earth I am certain Debbie HATES.)

I'm trying to recall if the year of this side discussion was 1993 (Body, Mind, Soul) or 1995 (Think With Your Heart).  The unofficial fanzine had an Internet mailing list component, and, sometimes, discussions would go "off the board", as it were.

This discussion had done just that and, as I recall, involved at least four people:  Myself, two moderators of the group, and a fourth person who had some involvement with at least the radio arm of the music industry, if not the industry itself.

That person with the involvement had relayed to us that Atlantic Records (Deb's first label, for four albums and a Greatest Hits slough-off) had given up on Debbie within two albums, even though she was the hottest thing on the label for about two years:  A #1 album, two #1 singles, a number of top fives, two big tours, and a 1987 #1 for the #1 Dance Club song in the country.

But that, by and large, came to an absolute end shortly after the second #1.  And anyone who remembers the charts in 1989 could know it:  "Electric Youth" (the single) was screaming up the charts like a rocketship.  

A bit of backdrop:  Debbie's original manager was Doug Breitbart -- I'm not sure if he has any tie to the Breitbart right-wing media empire, but I would have no dispute, especially if this rumor and theory are correct, that he would be.

All of a sudden, some point between August 1988 and March 1989, Breitbart is OUT, and three things happen largely simultaneously:

1. Momager Diane takes over as Debbie's manager.
2. No one is saying a word as to exactly what happened or why it happened.
3. That pretty much is the end of Atlantic's support of Debbie's career -- starting about a (depending on your take) 5-25 year exile from entertainment, where Debbie is largely seen as the butt of jokes and the like, for reasons which would be demurred off as "political".

It's the #2 that gets a lot of people interested, because of what we had well known by 1993, an album which didn't even sell 100,000 copies, two albums after Electric Youth.

So what happened?  No one knows, but one of the other three in the group has an intelligent guess -- and the only guess which would make sense, given the state of affairs.

And it also is consistent with the premise of the Yahoo! article today that Debbie has no #MeToo to tell:  Because the theory (and it was not originally mine, but I have adopted it openly) is that she was expected to be a #MeToo and basically be passed around like a joint, being the sextoy of the music industry the instant she turned eighteen (which would've been August of 1988, which is why I put that as one end of the timeline).  (Which see Spears, Britney -- and why, if it wouldn't be someone with such interests, like her father, being an abusive conservator, the time since Spears was freed makes me wonder if someone else shouldn't have been named...)

And the moment Debbie refused (up to and including a fourth-album song called "When I Say No"), they pulled the plug, and everything else which she might have done well with was basic inertia.  It was bad enough for some of us who figured it out as the years went on, but can you imagine if, while she still had some MTV pull, if something like this had gotten out -- especially when Debbie and her mother were fully in the right!!!

But the thing is, as I said above:  One of the things which seemed to come with "You'll Never Work In This Town Again" (if the theory I've been given is correct) was a demand that no one say a word on this situation of any kind to anybody at anytime.  And Debbie has well kept her end of that bargain.

(For the record, that she has no #MeToo to tell is fully consistent with that theory -- because it was the refusal which put a full-stop to her momentum.)

I'd like to say I didn't catch too much Hell from Diane, but that's not true.  That's for Part Three, however.

Part Two, I delve into a Libertarian thought process from Karl Denninger which DEFINITELY would place the operative hypothesis of this series (that this blog, nor I, should exist) to the forefront, especially with what was in play by May of 1998.

Blog Interruption Starts Now

Duration unknown, should be short.

Better days ahead.

Red Alert, Vis-A-Vis The Blog, Averted

About six or seven weeks ago, I posted the possibility that my time was going to be severely curtailed, etc.

Well, blow me, "Unknown".  Because all the news has come back good -- there may/will be a COUPLE DAYS' break in the near future, but we should be all good and square.  Once that break is taken care of, full speed ahead.

This is my 4,500th post. As of this moment, I don't see making 5,000. I may be wrong.

I've had a couple of days to reflect after getting a series of announcements in one realm and views of reality in another...

I am reminded that I told my family on Facebook (a place where, out of the last 365 days, I MAY have been allowed to post half of them, at best!) a year ago to mentally prepare for my funeral, and that only the cowardice of the American Right would change that -- a cowardice I should've remembered from January 6th, 2021.

And the cowardice which is the only reason I make this post today.

Regretably, the other portion of the cowardice which has NOT gone away is the hatred and bigotry and all of that which the American Right has really brought to bear since the movement actually got a figurehead in Russian Agent Donald Trump seven years ago.

And now that we are (if one chooses to pay attention) aware of what this man and his supporters have probably done to this nation in that seven years, I think the only emotion I have left in reality -- be it to him, bigotry towards transgenders and others, etc. -- is a violent hatred of my own.

Because, unlike many of the people these cowards target, I've done shit.

And it's clear what these people would like to have happen, but they have no bravery to do it, nor do they have any understanding why the rest of us would call them on it, especially as it relates to what they believe (falsely) are God-given rights to them.

They state that they believe the Kiwi Farms-esque threats to transgender gamer Keffals are nothing but "free speech", even if they do, in fact, result in her death.  Last report, the third attempt to house them has gone to the full-scale Dark Web in TOR.  This, after various European lethal bigots were being given instructions to bomb restaurants Keffals frequented after she had been exiled from her home nation of Canada because of the first wave of death threats.

As they state it, "free speech" is a canard.  All that has to happen is that the target of the speech has to be someone who surmounts (due to economic, political, or other reasons), the "No Duty to Protect" (or, more correctly, the "No Desire To Protect") from the Supreme Court Castle Rock vs. Gonzales decision.  At that point, they will find a reason (and fill in the interpretative blanks) to get rid of the undesirable in the action.

I have friends of mine in these communities -- friends of mine I believe I am about to lose.  And I say that, in no way, as a condemnation of them.  But their cries are evident:  "What is a person supposed to be allowed to have to take?"  Friends of mine who live in terror every day -- terror authorized by the authorities because they, too, share the desire at an end result, but also sharing the cowardice and hiding behind their badges, including a Sheriff in our community who is among the hundreds of law enforcement Oathkeepers...

And, as my year tends to go, right around Columbus Day in October tends to suck quite hard.  If I don't lose some of those friends by then, I see a major loss on my horizon that weekend.  I lost my mother one Columbus Day weekend, my first college a second.

And the more I look at a lot of these bigots and conservatives, it is clear they have stacked the deck in their favor, including the police and authorities.  I am already clear they want rid of me, but how much of that is my own actions, and how much of that is the people I tend to support, I can't say.  (My guess:  A little of Column A, a little of Column B.)

There is the Fall elections, in which, even after the Dobbs decision monstrosity, it still appears these fascist bigots and animals will get two bullets from the Presidency.

And then there is an announcement I was made aware of this week, regarding the basic origin of my feelings about "free speech" being a canard and what criteria can be used to silence speech (free or otherwise -- the question not being whether the speech was free in it's own merit, but whether the proposed "victim" was of enough worth to actually defend).  All I will say, at this point, in that regard is that, to me, would be the easy way out -- the quickest way to either being put in prison or shot.  And I've spent 53 years, 54 if what I expect to happen does not, not doing ANYTHING The Easy Way.

But the fact remains:  If I am not shot and killed (and the scales are now tipping away from the MAGAts and toward the authorities and the paragraph above), or heading to prison or there by this Christmas, then something occurred in the about four months between now and then I do not expect.  Perhaps continued cowardice, perhaps believing someone else or COVID will do it for them, I don't know.

But I do get the very real and urgent sense that I am about to lose something major and further first -- probably friends to bigots.

I guess, in closing, I say this:  There is a line I heard once, and it was actually in a wrestling promo.  It's a two-part saying, of which the first part is not true.  Heaven does want me -- and, even with my sins and my misconducts and my anger and all of that, I still have faith Heaven will have me when my time comes.

However, the second part of it IS true...  The saying is:

"Heaven don't want me...

... but Hell's afraid I'm gonna take over!"  

Goodbye and TO HELL WITH 2020

(No, I'm staying.  2020 is leaving!!!  boot in ass)

Oh how do I start this?

I think there's a very powerful statement Keith Olbermann made.  When this first started and it was clear the response was going to be INTENTIONALLY flawed, Olbermann told the world that the most powerful being on this planet was no longer the human race.  It was the coronavirus.

Don't believe me?

We don't even have to talk about the year basically being split between "before March 11" and "after March 11"...

This is tonight -- Times Square...  Usually, over 2,000,000 people flood the area for stage performances and the world-famous ball drop.

The performances are still there. 

The ball will still drop.

The two million people?  Not there.

Want more proof?  The Las Vegas Strip.

New Year's Eve is always the most expensive night of the year to get a room in the place.  That's because, on a normal New Year's Eve, 300,000 jam the Strip end to end.

The roads are still closed to cars.

Only a smattering of pedestrian traffic.  NO on-street crowds allowed.

The most powerful being on this planet is a virus.

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But, yes, the world can basically be separated, sports and otherwise, to the time before people became aware of the coronavirus and the time after.

Don't believe me?  Here's ESPN, just before what was to be the tipoff of the game which upsot the whole apple cart in Oklahoma City, when health officials notified the officials, the teams, and the league that the coronavirus was here in the NBA -- and, within an hour or so (and seven minutes after the news broke of Rudy Gobert's positive), the NBA was off until about July...

The look on Mark Cuban's face that night during his game said it all.  We were fucked.

No sports at all in this country til about May.  Everything, as I've been telling you for over nine months, still up in the air on almost a daily basis.

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And then there's the other big story of the year.

Everybody we fucking lost.

This is by no means an exhaustive list of any kind, just a subset (of names I recognize, and I cannot do the overwhelming nature of all this justice) of the Wikipedia articles on who we lost in 2020...

The list is staggering, and it includes:

• January 1:  Former NBA Commissioner David Stern
• January 1:  The only man to throw a perfect game in the World Series:  Don Larsen
• January 2:  Former NFL coach Sam Wyche
• January 9:  Golf course architect Pete Dye
• January 15:  "Soul Man" Rocky Johnson
• January 16:  British editor and academian Christopher Tolkien, son of J.R.R.
• January 23:  Jim Lehrer
• January 26:  Kobe and Gianna Bryant, along with several others
• January 30:  John Andretti
• February 5:  Kirk Douglas
• February 20:  Tennis player Jeanne Evert, sister of Chris
• March 8:  Max von Sydow
• March 17:  Roger Mayweather
• March 17:  Lyle Waggoner
• March 21:  Richard S Kline, of "Kline and Friends" game show productions
• March 29:  Joe Diffie
• April 1:  Adam Schlesinger
• April 2:  Patricia Bosworth
• April 4:  Tom Dempsey
• April 6:  Al Kaline
  
• April 12:  Danny Goldman
• April 12:  Joe Pedicino
• April 15:  Brian Dennedy
• May 5:  Sweet Pea Atkinson of Was (Not Was)
• May 6:  Brian Howe of Bad Company
• May 8:  Roy Horn of Seigfried and Roy
• May 9:  Little Richard
• May 12:  Carolyn Reidy, CEO of Simon and Schuster
• May 22:  Jerry Sloan
• June 2:  Wes Unseld
• June 10:  Mr. Wrestling II
• June 20:  Jim Kiick
• June 29:  Carl Reiner
• July 1:  Hugh Downs
• July 5:  Nick Cordero
• August 28:  Chadwick Boseman
• August 31:  Tom Seaver
• September 6:  Lou Brock
  
• September 18:  Ruth Bader Ginsburg
• September 21:  Jackie Stallone
• September 23:  Gale Sayers
• September 29:  Mac Davis
• September 29:  Helen Reddy
• October 6:  Eddie Van Halen
• October 7:  Tom Kennedy
• October 7:  Bob Gibson
  
• October 8:  Whitey Ford
• October 11:  Joe Morgan
  
• October 28:  Tracy Smothers
• October 31:  Sean Connery
• November 7:  Norm Crosby
• November 8:  Alex Trebek
• November 9:  Tommy Heinsohn
• December 7:  Chuck Yeager
• December 12:  Charley Pride
• December 21:  Kevin Greene
• December 25:  KC Jones
• December 26:  Brodie Lee/Jon Huber
• December 26:  Phil Niekro
• December 30:  Dawn Wells

And, as New York goes over just as I finish this, why did I put a few of them in bold?

The last one on this list (as of NYC going over, from Worldmeters):

• The now 354,215 Americans and 1,825,780 worldwide lost to this damn virus this year.

Time to kick 2020 out of here.  Good bye and FUCK YOU to it!!!

No Holds Barred, No Quarter

I have heard the first two Olbermann political commentaries which he started on YouTube earlier this week.

To say that they are inspiring in Olbermann's righteous anger would be an understatement.  I have had to take into account, from readers of this blog, the fact that we are too fucking stupid as a NATION to separate that which we have proven and that which is more salacious that these meathead red hats are lapping up.

President Trump can not simply be defeated on the election which is scheduled to complete on Election Day, November the third of 2020.  That's going to have to be the beginning of a process where this country imposes the human rights of ALL OF IT'S CITIZENS AND RESIDENTS on these red hats, up to and including ENDING THEIRS.

Every day, I am more and more struggling not to be in direct and absolute violation of certain Federal laws -- but it is getting more difficult to picture a future-- for me personally, for my friends and family, and for this nation at large -- unless, at some point, the brand of STUPIDITY which has been allowed to flourish under this orange Oompa-Loompa and his pro-rape brigade IS made illegal and is punishable to the maximum extent of the law.

Because it is NOT one's actions which run one afoul -- it's what is believed to be what many call one's "legitimate purpose".

As I said, I still have a story I've been sitting on several months now -- and it involves a widely-respected public entity in this country (apolitical).  But that story, and many others, appear to indicate that many people, in the eyes of these incurable MORONS, have only the "legitimate purpose" of being beaten, and eventually discarded.

I am reminded of the "Originalist" way of thinking:  A Constitutionalist which would kill anybody in the way of a person or government's Manifest Destiny from God Himself, because that entity isn't even human -- for being Black, Indian, female, or things they dare not speak of back then like the LGBT Community.

You do NOT have the right of liberty or to pursue happiness in this country except on a very limited form that the state provides.  Why?  Look at the 13 motherfuckers they just locked up in Michigan yesterday.  Understand that they are probably some of the one and the same people who, back in April, took up arms against the government of the state of Michigan, went to the State Capitol in Lansing, and implied a threat to shoot the place up because of "our FREE-DUMBS" or "our freedom to disseminate a lethal virus".

One's very life violates their "liberty", their "freedom", their "happiness" or any hopelessly-misguided pursuit of it!  Because, eventually, at it's core, it violates the right they felt God gave them to be Lord over the rest of us -- including the classical droit du seigneur.

I believe we need to eliminate this and put it six feet under the ground while we still have a legal framework under which to do so.  There is a saying that "Stupidity is not against the law."  Well, as many felt my brand of stupidity was for the better of at least 12 years, so is this brand.

We have an Aryan Supremacist President, if not a new brand of the Grand Wizard of the Ku Klux Klan.  And the worst thing for him is:  He's not only sick with his own virus which he and his allowed to spread to the desired-result deaths of over 200,000 "Useless Eaters", as he and his would claim they are and me with them!!!, even his own Republican polling now has him, as a result of his virus, down 12 points (Rasmussen) in the Federal election.

(Side comment:  For the relevant discussion, you can pretty much halve that lead.  A good 3-4 points of the national total of victory margin will come from California.  Another point or two from New York.  So take no solace.)

And that's even if we get that far to even COUNT the votes.  There are already nationwide reports of the theft of polling machines and ballots (both mail-in and otherwise) criss-crossing America.  If the word you read from any Republican-laced message board in sight is any indication, a mass unsheathing of weapons is about to take place on and around November 3rd.

Well, if you motherfuckers are froggy, JUMP.  Even though my state is sending a mail-in ballot to every last voting citizen of this state -- if I am required to vote in-person, I am coming with an equalizer.

It will be hidden and concealed, and it will not interfere with anyone's process of voting.  It is to ensure that I get in and out safely and that if there are any Donald Trump supporters who are in violation of not only the state's electioneeering laws, but trying to obstruct the building and grounds -- they WILL BE DEALT WITH.  If there is no such interference, I'll be the only person who would know I have it.

If you fuckers wanna "go", this ain't my first rodeo...  I HAVE heard shots fired in anger...  And I almost hope one of you thinks I only go after female Broadway singers now about a third of my size.

If not for friends of mine counting on me, I would almost make a goal out of getting shot at in the next about 3 1/2 weeks by a person I would call a "Rethuglipig".

And then we gotta clean up the mess after we get Biden and/or Harris in.  That's going to be even harder.

And now, to resume our normal programming...

Day (2)10 (Part 1): A Decade

You are not going to believe this, but, yes I did check...

TODAY is the TENTH ANNIVERSARY of the beginning of Super Fraud.

October 7, 2010 was the first post on this blog.

And this blog has basically gone completely off the rails I had originally intended it.  I'm not even sure I meant this as a long-term project.  My ORIGINAL INTENT was to use this blog as a case study of the then-44 Super Bowls to establish how many of them were fixed, rigged, manipulated, tampered, whatever have you.

Well, I never really got there.

Why?

If you had told me the kinds of things we would find out in the last 10 years about sports and the true machineries behind it, I would look at you and wonder why we even watch another sporting event, whether that level be professional or our nephew's youth basketball league.

I don't know when I finally openly converted the blog to a running commentary on match-fixing, game-rigging, the politics (both literal and simply sports-related) behind sports, etc.  It may have always had that bent (my second post was from no less than Brent Musberger commenting on the effectiveness of steroids in sports -- and even if he hadn't meant it as an endorsement, it WAS a material endorsement of same!)

Now, I make no warranty that I ever break stories around here.  I don't have the "secret sources" around to break that final chain that's going to cause the entire house of cards to come down for any one sports league specifically with respect to game-rigging, or to the American Sports Machine.

That doesn't mean I haven't seen some awful zingers in ten years:

• One week after the blog's inception, I made note that ESPN no less than warned the current Bowl Championship Series that it was going to have to rig matters off the field (and eventually on it, see Auburn's comeback over Alabama and Boise State finally bowing to reality on the same day within a month and a half!) to ensure that a non-qualifying conference school would never play for the National Championship, when it ran all the numbers and declared that Boise State University would be the #1 team in the nation under the BCS' system.  Within one week, the first official numbers came out, and the BCS took care of their business.  And, between the Alliance (created in 1992 as a result of BYU's National Championship in 1984), Coalition, BCS, and CFP (the latter of which actually was demanded after the one-and-same Boise State defeated Oklahoma in a classic Fiesta Bowl), no non-major conference has ever played for the recognized National Championship of major college football in the 28 seasons since -- even though at least two schools would almost-certainly have won national championships in the pre-Alliance backroom system had the polling still been in place (2006 Boise State, 2017 Central Florida).
• The first ten months of the blog saw less than 70 posts, but then a referee attack in Florida youth football (months after ESPN exposed that said youth football was largely drug/gang-related professional football back to about the age of seven or so!) started a football season where all Hell broke loose -- the last one being a pre-meditated orchestrated mass attack on a rival football team by a Georgia community, which they got away with.   So bad that my Fine Blotters actually go all the way back to about NFL Week 3 of this first full year of the blog.
• But then, Pedo State.  The first real transformative content on the blog.  Really, the nation's first real exposure to the central pillars of American sports:  Abuse, Rape, Pedophilia, even Murder...  But the real one that got swept too far under the rug (largely because of the guy who reported the possibility, caustic Mark Madden of Pittsburgh) was the report that an Epstein-style "Pedo Plane" was being used to court wealthy Penn State donors to give donations to the school.  If this (and Baylor and half the Big Ten) is not evidence for the abolition of the NCAA, and even the thought that the coronavirus may be a message from God that He's finally cleaning up the damn mess...
• 2012 started with the NFL Bounty-Gate coverup, where New Orleans won the Katrina Super Bowl due to deliberate injury of the other teams.  Then, the complete English FA at least rig-job (if not coverup of how Joey Barton was ever allowed to play professional soccer in the country at any level) to give Manchester City a Hollywood Ending championship to expand the number of relevant teams, raising the rights fees for the Premier League television contracts...
• And then the ESPN/NCAA sweep under the rug of Penn State, after Mark Emmert revealed a four-year Death Penalty was on the table.  Then, apparently accusations of both the murder of an investigating DA, as well as Sandusky's charity allegedly attempting to kidnap Cal Ripken Jr.'s mother to maintain her son's compliance...
• The football season had a youth coach in California paying players $20 to give other 10 year-olds concussions, plus a coach in Utah charging the field and knocking out a 13 year-old opponent!
• Then, kicking off 2013, the Biogenesis downfall of A-Roid, the rise and fall of Johnny Football, and a case study as to the number of BCS games which never should've taken place as advertised, motivated by an expose on the 2008 National Champion Florida Gators.  
• Or how about the 1980's NFL ex-player whose house was used for a ransacking party, and the parents of the ransacking White kids didn't like that people found out, all but endorsing the violence?  
• Or the father who kills his son because the son wanted to go home and no longer watch any football?  
• Or the Jets Superfan who belted a woman in the face in a post-game fight -- only to find out the guy had already done prison time for MURDER!!!
• Or Deadspin buying the ballot of a BBWAA member for the Hall of Fame in baseball?
• Or "THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT ALABAMA!!!"  *BLAM!!*
• The year Rapeis Winston won the Heisman, a year before there should've been investigation he was throwing (or at least spot-fixing) games -- and an investigation into sexual assault all over the Florida State football program.
• 2014 starts with Chris Kluwe announcing he's been blackballed from the NFL. (The same year Michael Sam gets the same treatment!)
• Then, the next major transformative blog event:  Donald Sterling. Sterling is immediately thrown out of the league as a condition of it's continuance, the NBA being four-fifths Black.
• Soccer has long been a common target of my ire, including the work of Declan Hill to explain why -- everything from hooliganism to the 2014 World Cup, to, more recently, the travails of Wigan Athletic FC.
  
• And then, the next transformative, within a week of each other, the Ray Lewis beating video and the Adrian Peterson controversy, and the NFL coverup to prevent people from rightfully asking the rightful questions.

And that's just about the first four years.  More to come...

And this is THREE THOUSAND...

On October 7, 2010 (NINE YEARS I've done this blog???), I started Super Fraud.

• 2500 was August 30, 2018.  Meaning the last 500 took 456 days.
• 2000 was February 8, 2017
• Etc.  I covered this before.

Wow.  Just...  wow.

Half. A Fucking. CENTURY.

January 22, 1969.

The moon landing was about six months away.

The infamous rigged Super Bowl III was 10 days old.

We were in the middle of the Vietnam War.

Watergate was just a hotel.

The #1 song in the country was the classic "I Heard It Through The Grapevine" by Marvin Gaye.

And, at about 12 noon at St. Mary's Hospital in Rochester, MN, a boy was born a month premature.

Me.

I turn 50 years old today.

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And what a 50 years it has been...

The Immaculate Reception and probable rigging of the start of the Steelers' dynasty came just short of my fourth birthday.

The Reserve Clause of Major League Baseball lasted until I was six.

I remember being a fan of the "Purple People Eaters" and languishing over THEIR four Super Bowl losses as a young child.

The Four-Letter Network didn't start until past my tenth birthday...

I don't recall where I was for the "Miracle On Ice", but remember, 22 years later, being in Salt Lake City while the team lit the torch at the stadium to begin the Games of the Winter Olympiad.

We didn't believe we could fly, just because Nike told us who our sporting gods were.

Graduated #1 in my class in high school in 1987, then it all went to pot as far as schooling was concerned.  One expulsion and banishment and a second near-suspension, and it took nearly seven years to get a (now-invalid) Bachelor's Degree from the University of Wisconsin-Eau Claire.

Then, I traveled the highways and by-ways, getting more education out of a Greyhound trip to see an Electric Youth than in the classroom -- an education which ended with 7 1/2 months in Riker's Island...

I remember being fooled by the Barry Bonds phenomena in San Francisco.

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So I'm 50 today.  If you want an idea of what I've seen in that time, just go back and read the archives of this blog. 

I have had a lot of introspection in the last couple weeks.  Coupled with some of what I'm reading of current affairs in the media, I will openly admit there is some question (not any health scare, mind you) that I see #51.  That will be addressed in another post surrounding the Super Bowl.

But I'm still here, dammit.  From jilted boyfriends to those highways and by-ways to the MAGA hats, I've had a lot of threats to my life, and I'm still waiting for one cojone on that side of the equation -- 30+ years of it now!

By all accounts, I should be deceased, at someone's hand -- justified or otherwise.  But until that day comes, I'm trudging on...